Boys Boys Boys!

I am getting so overwhelmed with these boys and their crazy feelings!

I have one that is cute and I liked talking to him at 1st but he is just so freaking needy. He wants this from me and that from me and well I just don't have time to deal with it! So, I tried to tell him I was done and he basically begged for me not to be! I explained to him the problems and I said I would continue to talk to him but, I can't have all the pressure put on me!

So, this other boy I just recently started talking to is completely insane. He goes from 1 minute saying that he is so lucky he is talking to me and I try to reassure him that I am a normal girl and then he sends me crazy texts saying stuff like thank you for playing with my heart when I just got off the phone with him and we had a nice conversation. He has a lot of insecurities that I am not sure I can handle.

Then the other boy who thinks we are going to get married but puts no time or effort into really talking to me. We are in different time zones so it makes it difficult to be on the same track but I try to talk to him and well I just feel like I am getting nothing in return!

Then there is boy # 4 who is totally cool to talk to. We have only been talking for a couple of days but seems totally awesome.

Black

Apparently it is ok to treat me like shit as long as your name is Michael. Your mom can watch him abuse me physically and talk to me however he wants but if I try to defend myself or even talk to him  I am in the wrong. I am so tired of living b/c I am worthless. I don't do anything so, I have no reason to live. In fact everyone would probably be better off without me. So, I might just do it. I could take some pills and just go to sleep and never wake up and not have to deal with him or mom or even try to be a good sister and try to do the right thing b/c nothing I do is right! I am not even a good mother according to everyone so, maybe B will be better off he has a new mom! My heart is broken b/c I am not loved and and I just want to be loved Fuck'em all! I'm out!

CrAzY

So, here I am doing my thing talking to random guys!

I am one girl that is head over heels for this boy and I know that he is an awesome guy and any girl would be lucky enough to be with him but, it's not gonna happen for me b/c I am not me! I love and hate it all at the same time!

So, I am another girl who talks to a few different guys and omg they are crazy about her but, I could care less if I talked to them again!

It's just that 1st boy as got me thinking that maybe just maybe he could love the real me!

O' boy!

Wow, I have never met a guy like you!  You are funny, smart and good looking adn you don't have a problem communicating.  You seem to be a dream come true but a dream that is not mine.  We would be perfect together except you think I am ugly.  You don't know that the girl you are talking to is that fat girl that messaged you.  When am I going to learn to stop messing with these boys heads.  I keep trying to figure out how I can make it work but,  I just can't. I am not going to tell you the truth but I don't know what I am going to do!

Little Liar

So, kinda liked talking to you. Wait I did like talking to you and you had a girlfriend! So, I busted you out and you said you were sorry but, I don't even care!  You are just another guy who lies to get what they want but, I lied to you so I can't be that mad.  Sorry I could've been the best thing you ever had!

So, over you!

Well, I am now over that boy and have moved on to a few others! Stay tuned for more obessive and broken hearted stories!

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So, here I am up at 2am and guess who I am thinking about.....that's right! I keep thinking that maybe he will call or text me but I am just telling myself lies! I decided that when he goes back to school I am gonna just call him outta the blue and see if he wants to meet up! Maybe he will be drunk and agree to it! haha! I am so silly! It makes me so mad that I can't get him out of my head!